*Flurries*

Lately things have been a little tough for me. Not going to lie. Some people may not think my life is stressful or hard, but to me it is. Life as a young Mother is a very challenging journey. Dont get me wrong I DO love my life, i'm just saying that at moments its difficult and at this time its extremly hard for me. I've been dealing with health issues for a long time now 6 months prior to getting pregnant, 9 months while being pregnant and now still 8 months after my son was being born i still have health issues. Some days they are fine, but other days i'm just plane worn out. Dr. Donovan & Dr. Tamez are still working hard on trying to figure it all out and i am very greatful for them. I must say out of all the doctors i have seen over the years they are by far the best and i highly recommend them Dr. D-is OB & Dr.T is a Family doctor which Brock and Clayton both see. I can say my health has gotten extremly better in the last month, but it is still draggin me down at times i press on everyday and keep going with my everyday life, but deep down inside i'm worn out and sick of being sick all the time. Please Jesus heal me from all of this.
Beyond my health there is stress that most mothers have ya know the basics of house work, taking care of your child, and your basic of day life. Except in my life and for my lil family you have to add in other stress which some of it is personal but also there is some that is not so personal that many of you know of. I guess you can say everything Brock, Clayton and I have gone through is starting to get to me. I'm trying to stay strong through it all, but at times its hard and I sit in tears. I know God has a plan for us and is looking out for us He has blessed me with a  Wonderful son and a gorgeous new Apartment, but among all of these amazing things there is a lot of stress we may seem like we got it all together but at times we dont.
We are working everyday to give Clayton the best life possible and keeping our relationship STRONG!
You know what bugs me also is when others look down on us for how we live, but what they dont think of is we have the most important thing in the world we have GOD on our side and LOVE. We may be on State help for alot and cant afford all the most expensive things, but we dont need it to be happy. Money doesnt matter. Yes Brock is a full time student and isnt working (side work only right now during school) but that doesnt make me love him less he gives Clayton and I plenty and being a full time student and still able to spend time with his family is great he did 23 credits in 1 semester and this one is 18credits thats alot!!! I'm not working right now because of health and I chose to be a stay at home MOM.  I might be getting a part time job, but i wanted my son to be able to stay home with either Brock and I and not be raised in daycare 24/7 I wanted him to be raised by Parents not where he only sees parents every once in awhile.
So yes our family may not be perfect to you but its wonderful and amazing to me. I am working every day to work on pressing on past the stress in my life and being the best Mom possible. No one is perfect so remember that before you pass judgment just because someone is different.